Clary,

Despite everything, I can't bear the thought of this ring being lost forever, any more than I can bear the thought of leaving you forever. And though I have no choice about the one, at least I can choose about the other.

I want you to know that despite my earlier words, I'm immensely grateful that you came to Idris – I should have had more confidence in your strength, your wisdom. I'm sorry I ever hurt you – out of all the things in this world, you are the one I will protect above all.  But to do that, I've got to stop Valentine. Please understand why I've got to do this alone.

I love you, Clary – everything about you. You are beautiful, courageous, compassionate and strong. I fell in love with your laugh, your voice, your warm smile. Just being with you made me happier than I ever thought was possible. Every day you were finding new ways to amaze me. When I tried giving you up, I was numb with loss.  I won't do that again, Clary, not ever.

Know that you are mine, Clary. You will always be mine, just as I will always be yours. And no knowledge of sin will keep me from loving you.  I don't care anymore.  If I am denied a place in heaven, then that's ok, because I had heaven with me in every moment I spent with you.


With all my love,

Jace